… and in order for the world to have winners, it needs losers like me.
I just cannot get my act together. I can’t even bring myself to believe there’s a reason to try. I will NEVER have enough money to live life, to grow up, and the thought of ever paying off my debt is laughable. So I just can’t move. I just can’t get up and have a full day.
I’m 2 years shy of 30 and I live at home with my mother, working the worst, lowest paying job of my entire working life. It’s 5:40 in the afternoon, and I haven’t even brushed my teeth yet. Pajamas still on. This is what I am now.
There are so many people I want to see, so many things I want to do, but I can’t even afford to put gas in my piece of shit car, let alone pay for the ticket to the show, or the beer with the friend.
Sometimes I cry a lot about it. Sometimes I am completely accepting of my bullshit status in life.
But I am never happy.
I just feel like I’m scraping by just to be a waste.
I feel like I'm in a shittier version of highschool at my job...
…than the actual highschool i went to. In all honesty, my highschool experience was not so bad, andfilled with a lot less drama than this place is. Just sniping, and shitty attitudes, all day, everyday.